Blogging Schmogging

Okay - here's my Achilles heel on Blogging...

I'm not sure I really get it...

There - I've said it!?!

I do enjoy reading others' blogs though. I find them amusing, informative and if it's someone I know, it keeps me abreast of their goings on.

My challenge with blogging is twofold:

I don't feel like a blog is really a personal diary of things going on with me. I know I'm writing for an audience or at least someone, somewhere will view or read a sentence or try and find my e-mail address for marketing/spam purposes - so I write differently than I would to myself. It's an innate thing. I have often found blogs (Live Journal for example) that are personal in nature to be rather manipulative to the reader.

So writing about myself is difficult in a public forum - at least for me.

Secondly, I'm a ruminator!!!

My therapist has proudly made this pronouncement and I wear this title with pride and dignity. Being a ruminator isn't really a bad thing, but it can hamper me from getting things done or moving on.

So when I think about writing in my blog, I ruminate about what I should write. And then about why I should write. Then I write it all in my head and then ruminate about it for a couple more days. Of course the rumination then leads to the "Well that's not interesting enough" phase and I'm off to another subject to ruminate about yet again. The cycle repeats and has repeated for the last 30 years. I'm very accustomed to it actually.

I think....I think hard...

Sometimes I wish I could hardly think...